(common – come close remix) i hate depending on ish… (i bet u have noticed by now).. but u always depend on something.. right now i depend on my website host to work (dwele – money dont mean a thing)…and it chooses..not to.. ARGH!…and i`m on my third drink and dont have any cigarettes..and who knows me knows i need cigarettes when i drink (only when i drink)…and theres a damn blizzard outside.. no chance to get to a cigarette machine.. damn it!… not my day today… been trying to upload these pictures to my website for the past 3 hrs.. no luck.. i also been messing with my itunes library for about 4 hrs now.. with 22000 songs its a lil hard to manage sometimes.. uh…totally not my day…
well at least…i had some good music guide me through the day (atmosphere – little man).. whats my jam of the day?..Consequence – Job Song… lol… no, i dont want my day job back.. HELL NO!..i`m so glad to be outta there.. and so glad to be able to just have music playin in the back all day..(Consequence – Feel this way)..
i wonder if its possible to be happy with music only..what i mean is, to not be in a relationship (friendship yes, but no romatic relationships)..i`ve been having this issue (Caltroit – Spectacular) with men pretty much ever since i started to go after my dream..music is my love..because it has always been there for me…since i was born..it has never let me down..and it never will..no matter what mindstate i`m in.. music will fit the mood.. music guides me, comforts me (AZ – Undeniable), loves me, demands me, touches me, excites me… and therfore i will never let it go or let anyone get in between… and this is hard for men to accept.. which i understand.. but…does that mean i have to choose? i`ve heard alot of artists talk about dealing with this issue..when you are THAT passionate about something you are not willing to compromise…i know i`m not…
i`m babblin today..maybe its the wine.. maybe some conversations i had earlier today that stuck with me (Big Noyd – Things done changed).. uh…not my day..really…ì will stop..its not goin anywhere tonight.. i hope yall have a good weekend.. i`m out for now…peace